i hate how I am when I'm with you
but I wanna be with you more.
so please tell me exactly what I said or did
to make you like me before.
i hate what I say when I talk to you
but I can't talk to anyone else.
so just let me keep talking 'till inevitably
i say something that doesn't make me wanna kill myself.
and I know that you know that I'm a mess.
but if we could just shut up and pretend that my
unconventional charm still exists.
i hate how you don't care about me
despite explicitly saying so.
you're just not obsessively possessive like me,
so I chalk that up to letting me go.
i hate how abruptly you ended
what you and I both thought was a
non-casual exploration into how
we could love another person this much.
gonna throw out all the records I no longer relate to
and overplay the ones I now do.
gonna rip up the valentine pinned to my board
and everything else that reminds me of you.
and I'd hope that for your sake that you do the same,
cause I don't wanna be in your life.